It's been a long time since I held my head
Under water just to feel the need to breathe
Everybody does that's what I thought
All my life

It's been a while I hurt myself
To make sure I still feel
And it's been a while I carried that around
But still
Learn to crawl
Before you walk
It's not that far

Not that far
Fate is just another step away
Hello
Never mind how hard I tried at all

It's been a while I called you late at night
With the pillbox empty falling to the ground
Tripping over bottles pumped dry
Passing out

It's long ago I found myself
Unconscious and out cold
Hiding in my closet with a razor to my throat

It's not that far
Fate is just another step away
Hello
Never mind how hard I tried at all

So you know it feels like drowning every time
My days turn counter clockwise
Seeking for the reason that once got me far
Dark clouds keep appearing otherwhiles at all

Not that far
Fate is just another step away
Hello
Never mind how hard I tried at all